In my head, I get my nails done, I get a massage, I read books and write poems… In real life I watch teevee.
I’m not proud of my lethargy, I just have a limited capacity.
These babies, their toys, their sleep patterns, the floors, the ants, the dinners, the hair washing, the meltdowns – it’s all so time consuming and emotionally draining.
If I’m being honest, I watch teevee because it doesn’t want anything from me. I don’t have to do anything for the teevee or for any of the people behind the screen. I don’t have to speak or move or empathize. I don’t even have to pay attention to it.
And at this point – today – that’s a win.