Mom’s Day Off

20140507-094033.jpgI don’t know how to relax anymore. On the rare instances that I have a few minutes, or even hours, I have no idea what to do with it.

In my head, I get my nails done, I get a massage, I read books and write poems… In real life I watch teevee.

I’m not proud of my lethargy, I just have a limited capacity.

These babies, their toys, their sleep patterns, the floors, the ants, the dinners, the hair washing, the meltdowns – it’s all so time consuming and emotionally draining.

If I’m being honest, I watch teevee because it doesn’t want anything from me. I don’t have to do anything for the teevee or for any of the people behind the screen. I don’t have to speak or move or empathize. I don’t even have to pay attention to it.

And at this point – today – that’s a win.

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Mel Kozakiewicz a professor, editor, writer, and mother of two.

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